.....Fark FARK FARK!!!

I'm NV watching T-mac again... Tracy, u juz lost a fan.. always tot u were the nxt Jordan, now u can go to hell... Magic, u go jump too. Hill n McGrady, the dream 1-2 punch is.. gone.....

Hmmmm... 1st of all to hu ever thinks my blog is damn dull n copied, I dun give a f***. Jx has been simple in taste, n will always be this way.. I cant change for anyone, ANYONE..

Anyone...

Anyway, yesterday blackout was cool.. bad thing was couldn't sms... HaIzzZ... den physics this morn thrown out of the window.. I know u guys say its difficult, but trust me.. if A lvls come out like dat, we all As liao..... moi still F anyway, if studied confirm at least C la.. Chem last paper, den can slack liao... for 5 days at least haha.. Im entering midlife crisis liao, 5 days oso happy.. end of days juz arnd the corner.....

My will is inside my hp.. if moi die one of u fellas go n check... dun kill me, din leave anything to anyone of u..

普通朋友

等待　我随时随地在等待　做你感情上的依赖
我没有任何的疑问　这是爱
我猜　你早就想要说明白　我觉得自己好失败
从天堂掉落到深渊　多无奈

我愿意改变 (what can I do)
重新再来一遍 (just give me chance)
我无法只是普通朋友　感情已那么深　叫我怎么能放手

但你说 I only wanna be your friend 做个朋友
我在你心中只是 just a friend 不是情人
我感激你对我这样的坦白　但我给你的爱暂时收不回来
So I 我不能只是 be your friend　I just can't be your friend
no,no,no,我不能只是做你的朋友　不能只是做普通朋友

First ssw it from suzaku's webpage, den went to dl the song n lyrics.. yep its nice but sad, meaningful yet senseless... shows juz how impatience n insensitiveness can ruin everything.. but there's always hope..... is there? Njoy..

Remember I had this post abt some horrible nightmare scolding me ya.. haha.. n old pal Shen Kiat put it the best way.. His exact words

"You betrayed yourself!!!"

Yep I did buddy.. I did forsake.. my destiny for an unanswered plea of solace...

"Being ordinary is the most powerful. It's like a piece of paper, which becomes different after you apply different colours"

-Korean actor Jang Hyuk

K one warning for all NJ guys:

PLS PLS PLS dun look for other sch year bks...

... saw the CJ one today, courtesy of Vic... standard a bit lesser den AJ, but the quality a bit better.. which means tat for every NJ chiobu, there is abt 8 or 9 CJ ones........

=(

Its 10.40 liao la, n moi still at home.. cos the other gays haven woken up yet... Hmm, mebbe today juz slack slack a bit la......

K, since this is the last day liao... RECAP!

1)Flunk chem prac calculation cos calculator screwed up.. anyway cant be any gd la, cos i din mug at all.. V=sad

2)Yea! no date this hols.. might be a gd thing though =( V=sad

3)NJ Weiqi first piece of silverware, knocked HC off the perch for the very first time! V=happy

4)Went M'sia, had a gd bit of fun, first time outing considered success.. V=happy

5)HELP camp, kids enjoyed it, made many new frens, now knoe wad security asses do for a living.. quite enjoyable though.. V=happy

6)Detriot rape LA!! V=happy

7)Class outing: only 4 turn up, plus moi lost at lan (THX Reubs) V=sad

HmmM, think moi stop at 7, cos the rest r like negligible... so thats 4 happys n 3 sads... but the happys arh, not say dat happy, while one or 2 of the sads are damn depressing.. anyway fulfilling holiday.. plus moi 18 liao!!! K la, wun be writing dat much on blog liao, sch reopen no time haha... so... I guess thats gd bye den..

Ciao..

Anyway, juz got to say dis la.. Looked thru AJ yearbk , n come to conclusion...

If NJ has one chiobu, AJ has 10. If NJ has none, well... we r in jc to study, aren't we?

Do the maths ya? NJ guys pls dun cry... reality is always cruel.. we haven start on CJ n SA yet...

Today din cover alot of things like usually.. but Vic surprisingly is a gd studying partner n listener.. mebbe we tok too much cok la, but its always nice to haf an old fren to confide in... Anyway its realli a miracle dat our p6 ppl still close pals. Alp still close, Weixin n Johnson n Vic no change.. after 6 years, most ppl like lose contact wif their childhood frens.. but den it seems if the thread remains unbroken, the bonds grow stronger, n will nv break.. yep, I believe we will last thru time, better den any sec or jc grp, becos of the trust we haf in each other, n the fact that we know each other too well... yep... hope it remains this way..

Anyway, had a long chat.. abt this depression thingy of mine.. Den I come to the conclusion, dat mebbe its juz not meant to be la.. First of all, no common interest, den diff sch and backgrnd... plus cant even tok, heck even Johnson can chat better den me.. its like, gap too wide, attraction only superficial.. For things to work out, ppl muz haf something to work on; I cant find anything at the moment.. OK, thats the rough part, Im feeling the pain.. as in realli realli hollow pain, the kind u cant find an andidote one.... On the other hand, anything is possible. Believe dat its not juz a flash of the moment, but something real n possible beneath it.. well, any thing oso muz wait after A lvls.. den see how la.. In the mean time I juz stop thinking of this.. Future more impt. If its meant to be, it will happen.

"Attraction on the surface is like a bitter chocolate with sugar coating in a child's hand. The child will only finish the sweet covering and throw it away, as he fails to taste and appreciate the true flavour the chocolate holds for him, even though it is the very bitter taste that belies the purpose of the morsel in the first place. Hence, the fascination is only temporary and superficial, never meant to last or to be savoured, much less remembered and cherished"

Realli exhausted this few days... tmr will be a round up of the hols. A few highs, a few lows... who ever said anything was perfect?

... France out, newest addition to the "underachievo grp"...

=D Hu ever said Spain sux, can go eat dirt..

FFFinally back sia! Yeah, moi been writing too much lately.. but this new fad hasn't fade yet ya? After sch reopen will be once every nite, n will be short n sweet..

... Hate to say this la, but I've been studying rather hard.. like most of u buggers out there... Prob is, moi kinda inexperienced la, need ppl like Leonard n Reuben.. Though I knoe CT die le, but the threat of remedial n teachers' kb is too scarey.. so muz study a little bit!

Studied wif Jie Hui, Vic n Johnson again todae, but since I arrived after Chan, so not much time, 7 plus to 9, including dinner.. did some complex.. den Jeremy came over den 4 of us tok cok while Jh left.. looked a bit pale, take care bud.. We crap abt chiobus n all dat.. Haiz.. y muz we tok abt chiobus AGAIN.. like nthing better to say.. anyway 6A98 muz haf a gathering soon. Miss all the old frens, n some ppl like disappear for so long, like Guohao n Jason.. as for girls, cant remember dat many.. mebbe one or 2?

Anyway, I had this nightmare on the bus, me toking to my reflection.. den har, moi keep on scolding myself, "Y U TAKE SCIENCE ARH! SOOOO stupid! Lit n history ur 2 best subs, plus u LIKE them! N u HATE prac lor!! PLUS PLUS u not even need it for future.. so u juz playing wif ur life now until JC end! WtF r u DOING!!" Woke up in sweat, den felt damn sad..

Dun dare to slp tonite liao.....

Thx to Ka Yun, moi now haf tagboard! Any comments feel free!

Since I have officially given up studying for CT, I have lots of free time to write this stupid blog.

K la.. cant resist liao... n cant speak Spanish. Anyway as they say, singlish is another form of language we shd embrace..

Alot of things going thru my mind.. actually hor, rather stressed.. wad if fail again har. Gwee will kill me, Chan will kb me.. Haiz, but realli cant cram in wad, wad u want me to do. Slack too much le, cant even understand SHM now and superposition.. Let's hope Salas does his act again, den wun be so paiseh.. din realli slp well last nite, so dis morning wake up racking up alot of sad memories n lost innocence.. Feeling melancholy; heck, even the skies r crying for me..

HmM, the poet in me yah?

Magic select Dwight Howard.. Dun noe whether gd or bad.. cos T-Mac going, nothing can be gd liao...

England out. Damn Portugal.. Now czech will win...

After reading Josh's blog I have vowed to write in proper English. Or speak Spanish.

Finally back, from 10 hrs of pure torture sia... Almost dead..

First the mugging part was terrible. At least I can conclude 1 thing: CT is really, really no hope liao..... So hor, I might as well enjoy myself lah. As this rate of absorbing, mebbe I can get total 50 marks? from 3 SUBS! DUO LUO SIA! Hmm, at least toking cok wif Vic n Johnson was interesting.. Old frens, toking abt old times.. Vic ah Vic, dunno whether u know wad we toking abt..

But trust me. I can do it.

Den har, the ... Nothing much to say. Poor acting, lousy story line. Cant say anything abt plot though.. cos cant find it. LOTR, book so much longer, yet movie still can inculcate so much more.. To all Potty fans out there, pls, dun brag abt this movie. Daniel Radcliffe cannot.. to be fair, graphics are brilliant. Thats y so many animators, all take the place of storyline ppl. Lupin looks like my garderner at sch.. My bro's comment sums up the whole movie. He said, "Kor, the dementors look like copied from Nazgul!"

A movie shd haf feeling, special moments which toy wif the audience's emotions, n more imptly, wif the character's thoughts n actions. Like Frodo, u can feel his pain, his burden. U can see on Aragorn's face the majesty, the power. All I see on Potty's face is @%!?#*... BUAY TAHAN. Once u walk away from a movie without feeling a gain n spiritual awareness.. den the movie has failed. It fails in humour, it cant bring out the fantasy, and its "deep, dark plot" is so... hmm still cant find it. Ok la, Emma Watson is chio la.. but chio ppl cant save a movie. Think of all those gays n gals! Wad do they do den? Look at RON??? Loose ends not tied up, leaving the story ridden like swiss cheese.. COME ON PPL. READ THE BOOK! Or go watch something meaningful like Spidey...........

... Aiyah complain so much no use. At least my uncle n aunt happy la..

England better win.

Funny... Still haven run out of energy to write.. Mebbe will die out in a few days..

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SianZzZ

10 o'clock in the morn, n I'm in front of the com.. again.. Going out to study la, with Jie Hui n Johnson, but somehow dun c the need. CT is CONFIRM TOK one... Wads the f****** pt lor..

Anyway, tired of hols liao la.. Its been mug mug mug, or at least my weak attempts to cram cram cram; I've not covered 1/4 yet I feel =p. Wad wif my camp, weiqi com and other extra activities, I feel drained lor.. 1 outing I was looking forward to though din materialise.. haiz.. but u say wanna study mah.. so let u be lor... Hopefully not trying to put me off haha..

=(

Yep, btw I wanna brag abt my weiqi team on this fine morn ya (put away those unhappy thoughts).. Somehow or another we juz happen to be top jc in sg liao, 3rd in national lvl. CURSE THOSE PRCS!! N MY SENIORS! Anyway nj nv had a team b4 in this comp, so our accomplishments are excellent.. actually out of dis world la. To my hc buds, nv wanted it to become this way. Ur teacher cld have pulled me in u know.. but i knew after the posting la..... Anyway, u guys r the best, will nv forget u all, chorming, wuxuan, guangxu, yihui etc.. My most pleasant days in tchs were wif u guys.. no kidding

Hmmm... time has flown. Time for me to leave too. Hope todae can get something in la. Sick of Fs liao...

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=!

Anyway, me relatively new in this business la... not pro yet like some buggers (think suzaku). So any comments... stuff in down yer throat, or I'll do it for ya. K.... back to mugging..

Btw I'm open to suggestions!

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First time sia!

WAh... My first blog! Wad shd I write.. Anyway this is due to the sudden popularity garnered by this stupid website.. and Kangyu bugging me sia (ass). Anyway damn late le.. shdn't write anything much.. yep continue tmr. End off with this saying by me, due to some realization last nite..

"There is only one of each and every single one of us. Just be yourself. People like whats inside, not outside. To change one's character to satisfy desire is pointless."

"Remember, you're special."

Haiz... wonder if she'll appreciate that..

FIRST BLOG COMPLETED! TY TY TY

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