Yes, I'm home early today, about 8 hours earlier... It's damn near to prelims now. Still can remember that time when I first started this blog; it was just before CT.. can maintain until now, should be considered an achievement? Lol... Next week GP prelims, and my results still quite disgusting.. can't seem to get above 30 for compre :s seriously quite screwed up... getting beaten by Mh is not fun, not fun at all. Plus 2 science practicals next week, what a nightmare.. I swore never to do another practical after O' lvls, and now I'm at it again.. fate just hates me..... Just hope I do well for this sat's maths mock exam, give me a bit of confidence. And it's my mom's birthday today. What a rush man.. but I will buy something for her. Definitely.

Nothing much happened over the past few days, ya.. I deleted the previous blog; it seemed to serve no purpose... Been studying, doing questions with Rbs and Sl.. surprisingly qutie productive working with them :D .. piaing maths like siao.. sometimes I wonder what could have been if I had worked harder for the past 1 1/2 years. Maybe S Papers? Then I can moan about my arts dream again. As I'm writing this, I juzt realised that I'm supposed to pei Sl go make bus pass, damn.. HaiZ, must apologise to him later lol. If we didn't go play lan, would have saved 97 dollars over the past 3 days. Funny how things turn out.. Anyway, I overheard a bunch of girls (2 erbus and one not-so-erbu) gossiping damn loudly about their love lives.. almost puked into my sundae la, when that fat girl said she had "experience" in matters of the.. ahem.. bedsheets. Come on man, or erbu.. what is there to be proud of? But one thing I notice is, girls seem to talk about anything to their close friends, even their darkest secrets, even the small things are never left untouched... That set me wondering. Am I being appreciated, or laughed at? Or worse still, ignored? Can't do anything about it, but just makes me feel very curious and sad. Don't even know how I'm going to approach you after A lvls.. but things will work out, though for the better or worse I do not know.. 2 1/2 more months more anyway.. I'm dying, not out of stress but boredom... And squirming with anticipation.

K I'm back... Address has been changed to the one above, due to some reasons which I cannot divulge.. you know who you are, I'm not going after you because I have too much on my plate at the moment.. if you were once my friend, please don't pull this kind of publicity stunt. It's really a bloody waste of time. And I don't think it's a crime having a blog. Not happy, don't look..

Had a week one rather forgets.. had some meetings I didn't want, plus broke a few promises I wanted to keep. Like Miss Wong says, I'm "incubating", in my hole where no one can reach me. But I'm climbing out. At least I think I am.. Trying to study with Sl and Reubs, think they have been a pillar of support, really appreciate that... gotta get my act together soon, otherwise even after A lvls won't have the guts to go after what I want. I can't reveal now, or it'll be a major distraction, be it success or rejection.. but hope is always there lol.. All the teachers are damn worried about me, and I'm sorry to for the trouble I've been causing. But really, I can't exorcise the demons in my head now... typical me. Note: temporarily under control.

Went for the SP competition last week.. we got 2nd, behind NYP again.. Damnit, we almost won. I though we had it in the bag after I destroyed the national no. 2.. but somehow Xd managed to screw up. Sometimes I wonder what gives him his confidence, esp when I don't see his points.. HaiZ. Yh screwed up 4 times, Xd twice, me once. Haha, won 6 out of 7, no wonder they need me =D .. but I'm not going back. Maybe for the colours dinner, if we are invited. But please, no more weiqi. I have more pressing matters at hand. As my cousin says, "don't farking screw up your A lvls." Since he has more experience in all matters, I shall listen to him for once.. Prelims coming in like 2 weeks? I know I can get AAAA, I know I can do it... I need the reassurance, the steadying factor, the confidence in myself. Be it science or arts, its the same. However, there is this feeling of unfinished business...

National day holiday's been less then great, spent the time running here and there, trying to catch up with my work only to be blinded during my visit to CMPB (btw, I'm pes B, worst luck).. knocked me out for six hours, they put some stuff in my eyes >< .. buay tahan sia.. Only had fun on friday, playing, yes AGAIN, dotA, where I made a fool of myself (damn shaman). Can't remember what happened on monday, but somehow I didn't watch NDP.. haven't watched for the last few years, somehow reasons here and there pop up. Anyway good luck for the econs exam tomorrow guys.. hope you all do well.

This blog is my life. Don't make a joke out of it.

Other than my failed attempt to humour myself, blog entries have been scarce, as Kangyu says.. not that my life has nothing happening... JC2 life is really sad, I've been trying hard to study but success has been nerfed due to lack of energy.. LOL, passed my first physics test today without consulting class muggers =) so maybe I AM learning, will try to convince Cheng on thurs.. Yep, its my honour.. I've been selected to see the principal due to my disgusting results, and she's gong to kaobei and kaobei... maybe she will block my EAGLES award application.

Anyway, I've been imagining alot about my class soccer team lately, which is rather on the attacking side.. can probably be said to be the best in NJ 7-on-7 ('cause some classes don't even have 10 guys). Here's the laydown:


NJ03S13
'keeper - Taffy #23
>though not very comfortable at shot-blocking, agility and good ball sense, plus humor makes up for his fear of hard shots.. a great keeper on his day

2-man-defence - Leonard #8, Jieli #51
>former is mean and fast, quick relexes and sharp tackling makes up for lousy touch and occasional loss of common sense... latter clumsy but determined and strong, consistent at the back.. 2 of them complement each other unwillingly and unwittingly

Anchorman - Minghong, a.k.a Salas #9
>skills and tricks aplenty, passing passable on good days, brilliant when he feels like it.. occasionally he gets out of his 2 metre-loci, he runs just a little bit

Left-wing - Jiaxuan #7
>[nothing to say.. later people say I bhb]

Right/free role - Qixian a.k.a Birdie #10
>very skillful player who's ego is is only surpassed by SL.. leader of the team, undisputed star, dribbles past people like nobody's business.. however few have seen him pass the ball

Striker - Swee Lee #69
>possesses best finishing instincts in the team.. strong and fast, desire for victory only ousted by enormous ego


There we go, the best team in NJ LOL (I think).. maybe Watson and gang can give us a damn hard fight. Other good players like Isaac, Kiamin, Reubs and rest of class on the bench, ready for action anytime. Seriously, I'm not lousy, though some people always guai lan me =( anyway, don't see why we can't beat Leo's friends, now that we got a good defence; the attack is always devastating.

Saw this chinese website http://www.junejune.net/ when reading "Turn left, turn right", got alot of stuff on one's heart and mentality.. can't put it up here 'cause don't have the chinese decoder.. Anyway its very inspirational and heartwarming.. studying is damn sian, damn damn boring... I need all the help I can get. But I can convince myself to be happy now.. maybe because I'm too tired? Still seeing things lol.. Yar, even been neglecting my dog... yep gotta sign off now, long day ahead tmr.. let me be lost in my dreams.......