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Wednesday, June 01, 2005


I'm 19, and not overtly concerned about the fact. Just a countdown to the end of my time; another year gone, never to return.

It says here in my script that I have to act happy [-_-"'). That's impossible.

And by normal blogging agenda, I have to blog down my birthday wishes. Write down some materialistic items, post some really enticing pictures of them.. hint really obviously to my friends that I really REALLY would want (insert something you would like), and cross my fingers high above my head. As in, almost, but not nearly, waving them in your face.. so that you can somehow guess I'm not joking. So, before you can start marvelling at your own unfounded intelligence.. I shall most unfortunately reveal that I'm not that sort of person, and your wallets are safe.

The sighs of relief are so pleasurable, one would think multiple orgasms were taking place.

A big thank you is on order I think. To those who remembered.. I regret to admit I'm rather unenthusiastic about my supposed special day, but really, I'm touched that you guys remembered. Leo and Reubs' pizza treat was great, and a surprise gift from BTT17 was out of the blue. I just wish I was a trifle more excited, but really, I am. My nose has not grown longer.

I guess I've just completed the first quarter of the mile. There's 3/4 more to go. And overall it's been an interesting excursion. Some unforgettable incidents, heart-breakers, hair-breaths.. maybe I got thrown off more than once, but always, people have been there for me. Always, when the string threatened to break, someone would always hold firm. Hence, I'm still here.

I would like to end off uncharacteristically for once. The future looks optimistic; I have no other reason not to think so. Stay tuned for more. I remain myself, as I was 19 years ago; matured, taller, perhaps darker.. but still the same person you once knew and will always know.

~

I spent the whole day pondering on whether I should feel upset that she hasn't wished me anything. Lots of thoughts rushing through my head, occasionally interrupted by some debate with various section mates. Made up my mind that I would not give two hoots about it. Be a man, and don't take little things to heart. Felt so proud of myself.. the tragic hero, finally breaking through the blanket if eternal darkness. Whether she purposely ignored, or didn't even bother to remember.. it didn't matter. SHE FORGOT.

*Melancholy*

*Self-pity/righteousness*

She doesn't care about me! I shan't about her then!


Then I realised. I've never even told her. Nor shown it anywhere. I delete birthday calenders.

How would she know?

It's so hilarious. I can't help laughing at myself. She's probably clueless, sound asleep. Dreaming of sweet nothings that don't include me. Lol.

_'Jx]- faded at 10:14 PM