Friday, April 02, 2010
Look into Her Eyes
Hand it to her. Just hand it to her. Most important thing to remember: you've nothing to lose. What is she going to do? Slap you, throw the paper on the floor, scream harassment, look away, walk off in a nonchalant, disbelieving manner that leaves you red-faced and wanting more of a response; it matters little, because you've never met her before and will never meet someone like her again. It could be the first and last bit of contact, you'll walk off the train and she's going to travel on. And she'll always be on the train, going to the East while you trudge your way back North, and you'll always be on a separate train, at a different time, going to your own respective places, a million thoughts on each mind, none of them connecting in any remote resemblance of the other. What of the people watching, murmuring, even laughing? Will someone snigger? Will she snigger? Will someone take a photo and put it on Stomp? So many questions about consequences, as she sits a few metres away. Why don't you go over and ask? Will she keep the poem? Will she type it out, store in on her blog somewhere and then throw away the scrap of paper, the last piece of you that she has in her hands, nesting somewhere in a wastepaper basket, before being shifted away. To be recycled, washed, as the ink runs off, as does the moment which it happened, as the contact becomes a memory soon forgotten. Forgotten. You don't want to be forgotten. Neither do you want her to ever forget this moment.
Walk pass her. Do it slowly, subtly. Careful now, don't want to make a big show. Don't want to make that faceless girl in pink giggle unnecessarily and change her mind. Don't be desperate, don't taint her with your desire. Remember the aesthetics, remember her purity, remember that she is beautiful, and no lustful thoughts can ever change that. Crystallize the moment, freeze it into a glass ornament, leave it on a shelf where nothing can ever touch it.
She looks up. There is this look of surprise, of intrigue. Yet this is this trace of expectancy. Be natural, don't smile, don't blush, don't give her the idea that you're intimidated, as all warriors before a maiden that shames them into submission. Approach with an intention as pure as the words on your poem, as much as you imagined.
The paper. Into her fingers. She holds up her hand, holds your paper. At that moment both your fingers touch the same object that will connect yet detach, simultaneously.
And you look into her eyes. And all that remain, are her eyes.
_'Jx]- faded at 10:59 AM